Psychosis: Leaving Home – Part Four

By Jessica Doonan Christmas arrived, inviting, consistent and warm with its sounds and smells. 7 months since my father’s suicide. 7 months since the fuselage of my life gave way, breaking open with the pressure of a thousand rivers, a thousand lies, a thousand truths none of us wanted to face. Breach was everywhere for […]

Psychosis: Leaving Home – Part Three

I. 10:15 am A curly-haired woman sits at the front of the Day Room, smiling at us. Only four patients came to Mindfulness Therapy today. The man next to me keeps nodding off on the table, the fluffy ring of white hair encircling his skull bobbing gently up and down with his breathing. “Take a […]

Psychosis: Leaving Home – Part Two

by Jessica Doonan I clicked ‘play’ on Cocorosie’s first album with the same pause and clenched jaw one physically prepares before playing a song tied to a previous love and loss. It hurts, but it makes you remember, and that gives it purpose. Cocorosie is placed in what I can only assume is a fairly […]

Psychosis: Leaving Home – Part One

It’s a drizzling day in April. It’s two am. It’s five pm. It doesn’t matter in the darkness and nobody knows. I’m inside, of course. I’m always inside. Things are happening again. My days are lived in shreds and scraps, like this one: shrouded in a ripped quilt, I sink into myself, the visceral terror […]

Do you like swearing? Do you like surveys?

The angriest bat Your two great passions are united in my thrilling questionnaire about your profanity usage. If you’re from the United States or Turkey, please take a minute to fill out one of the surveys below! I’ll post the results soon. Subscribe using the red bar at the top of the page for updates […]

Turkish Graffiti

One of my great hobbies is complaining about the weather. Any deviation from a strict 70 degrees will do for this; my habitat is definitely the indoors. Vermont Februaries, I think darkly to myself these days, are savage and merciless, the crocodile of the seasons. Crocodiles are unstoppable Google tells me it’s -10 F outside, […]

Kurdistan and Turkey – Two Worlds

Every now and then I’m reminded of the baby naming laws in various countries, and then I spend the next half an hour looking up all the absurd things parents tried to name their offspring. It makes a good distraction from almost anything. Try it! It’s fun. This article alone occupied me for five of […]

Survivor’s Guide to CELTA

Confession: I check my blog stats all the time. All the time. I suspect that many (most?) bloggers do this. There’s a sense of great satisfaction when one of the numbers clicks up. Someone read a thing I wrote! A stranger in Somalia! A stranger in Belgium! I am an Internet Ambassador! Okay, maybe not […]

Alaska Pride

Winter is creeping into Anchorage. Snow has been perched up on the Chugach range to the east for weeks, ebbing and spreading as the weather toys with us down here in the city- fifty degrees one day, twenty-five the next.  Each day, the sun lingers a little less in the sky and we’re left in […]

Bulgaria: We wish to retract previous disparaging comments

 It’s a beautiful day in Bulgaria. I feel compelled to mention that. I’ve been back in this country for a week now with my boyfriend, Adam. Spring arrived before we did and the air is fresh-smelling and cool. Red and white bracelets adorn the branches of flowering trees- the leftovers of Martenitsa, a uniquely Bulgarian March […]